some days this lifestyle isn’t what I want it to be.
some days this vehicle doesn’t represent a fast pass to freedom.
some days this van is more like a wooden rollercoaster, getting taken for a ride, with no end in sight.
some days my heart is in another country with the women i love and my mind is trying to figure out where it’s safe to sleep in a city that’s made sleeping illegal.
combine the uncertainty of vanlife with the uncertainty of startup entrepreneurship and you’ve destabilized the roller coaster, removing one safety pin at a time. Will you make it through the next turn?
I didn’t sleep last night, my mind mind was racing and my body was tossing and turning trying to keep up.
I tried to take a nap this afternoon in between client work to pay for the repair bill. Maybe it’s the fridge thermostat or the engines fan next. I can’t decide which one is more important. Should I prioritize keeping my food or engine from overheating?
While trying to nap, a homeless guy went through the trash cans behind me and I could hear him making all sorts of noise. At first I was irritated, my baseline emotion today. But then I heard the noise in a different light. This was the sound of human drive, a will to fight, a will to survive. Forward, brother, forward. One soda can at a time. One line of code at a time. One turn at a time.
The van isn’t freedom. Freedom isn’t free. It’s a test of how bad I want it. How much I’m willing to push myself to survive. How dark I’m willing to go in order to see the light.
What freedom awaits me on the other side of the truth I’m currently tunneling through?
“Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.”
~John F. Kennedy ✨
One would think that after such drastic changes I would be upset and distraught. I suppose that I know deep within my heart that I am traveling along on a path in this life that is guided by something bigger than any hiccup along the way. To acknowledge that peace and feel blessed, loved and proud of who I am and the accomplishments I’ve made is something that I will always own and no challenge, change or loss will ever take that away. The peace and strength within ourselves and the confidence of being authentic and true to our heart and those around us, that is more valuable than any comfort or stability and is something that will remain indefinitely ❤️
Terrible things happen to all of us. We all lose loved ones and are wronged in one way or another. If you want to see powerful change in your life, it is time to break out of the victim mindset and stop letting what happens to you dictate what you do with your present and your future.
I'm here to tell you, what happened to you is NOT your fault. Losing that loved one SUCKS and is absolutely NOT FAIR. You are entitled to your emotions and your reactions. We all need to grieve and process in our own way. I do NOT believe that everything happens for a reason. (In fact for those who read the Bible and hear this in churches, it is NOT Biblical). I firmly believe sh*t happens because this world is broken and in need of a Savior and that is all. .
While we cant always control what happens in life, we can control our reactions and it is our responsibility to take steps toward healing and not live under the control of our circumstances. This is why I have started going to therapy and firmly believe EVERYONE should go to therapy regardless of what has happened to you in life. This is also why I want to spend more time outside this year. Nature has always had the ability to make powerful change in my life. Doing things like backpacking trips or climbing a mountain are some of the most empowering things I've ever done and brings me more clarity and peace than almost anything else. Give it a try ❤
We talk more about this victim mindset in my Podcast with @chroniclesofasassquatch .
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the concept of “objective” vs. “subjective” truth has been in my mind a lot lately.
i remember reading The Rock Warriors Way and learning to discern beta with objective observations over just calling something “good” or “bad”.
i haven’t been rock climbing much but i have been living my life full of emotional dissonance—calling things good and bad rather than asking where they’ve come from and where are they going.
if you follow the enneagram then perhaps it doesn’t come as a surprise to learn i am 100% a 4.
and boy have i seen my 2 light UP in the past few months. i’d much rather observe how and when i act like a 1. so i have to ask, what type are you?
what are you learning about yourself via the enneagram and what resources are you using? please share! i’ve tabbed a few enneagram profiles i’ve been following!
xoxo - a 4 with a 3 wing 💚
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Happy Friday! 🎊 The long awaited weekend, and it's supposed to snow! .. and then turn into rain. 🙃🙃🙃 Ugh.
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Life is a journey. It can be hard - cruel at times. But it can also be fun, and rewarding. It can be fast, slow, confusing, or crystal clear.
This has been a weird season for me, and my family. I’ve been freelancing part time, and a stay at home dad, wondering what to do with my professional career and personal life — trying to figure out where the next path will take me.
We’ve been anticipating a lot of change. We’re ready for the next step. We just haven’t quite figured out what that is yet.
Chelsea and I are new parents. Our son is two, and our baby girl is almost one. Being a parent is harder than I ever imagined. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. All I want right now is to be a good dad. Nothing else really matters.
I’ve been beating myself up because I haven’t accomplished all the personal goals that I wanted to this last year. Business has been slow for me. I haven’t been working out consistently. I haven’t been creating content on IG or Youtube consistently. I haven’t been hiking as much as I wanted to. I’ve basically failed at everything I set out to do in 2019.
But the one thing I’ve gotten right is my kids. And that’s the thing that matters most.
And I haven’t given up on my personal goals. I’ve been eating healthy, stretching in the morning. And challenging myself to create something new every chance I get.
I’ve always been my worst critic. And I set ridiculous standards for myself, even when life is hard — especially when life is hard.
Lately I’ve been learning to let go, to be kind to myself. I’ve been through some hard times in life, which has taught me a lot of empathy and patience. I don’t judge or gossip. I try my best to love and accept people for who they are.
But for some reason, I don’t do that for myself. I’m learning though.
I don’t know what the future holds for me. But I’m excited to find out.
You never know what someone is going through, or what trauma or challenge they might have experienced in the past. And you can’t always control life’s circumstances, sometimes you need to just let go.
Be kind to people. And be kind to yourself.
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Can’t wait for spring!
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My oldest nephew loves being outside as much as I do. Before he could talk he'd stare out the window in the morning. Then I'd ask him if he wanted to go outside, and he would run and grab his shoes so I could help him put them on. The cutest! I think his little brother is also a big fan!
On one of our trips to the Czech Republic (2016), we visited ‘Trosky’ castle ruins in the region of Czech Paradise. This area is great for a day trip from Prague and offers amazing views of the region. The castle ruins sit on top of two basalt volcanic plugs and are folklorically known as Old woman (Baba) and the Virgin (Panna). The whole area of Czech Paradise is full of beautiful sandstone rocks formations, castles and tons of great hiking trails. We didn’t do much hiking at that time, but we are looking forward to exploring this area on our next visit in 2020.
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Looking forward to absorbing some energy back in this beautiful spot soon. I’ve only been to Sedona once and didn’t get to see too much so if you have any must hike trail recommendations, drop a comment below!🏜
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Don’t mind me... I’m just over here reminiscing about summertime and mornings in the mountains. ☺️
I’ll have you know that I DID get out on a snowy winter hike recently. It was beautiful and it felt good to be out there... BUT, summer will always have my heart.
How have your winter adventures been so far? ❄️ Are you livin’ it up or just trying to get through it? #mymountaintherapy