I guess it's time that I come out with my truth ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
About two years ago, I noticed my desires were changing. I was praying more and getting closer to God, but still... things felt off. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I've experimented with things for a while trying to find what was best for me, what I liked...what felt good. Most often going back and forth because of old habits. 🤷🏾♀️
These last six weeks have been such an eye opener for me. I felt like I found myself❤
I mean, denial is a real thing, but I don't want to live a lie anymore. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Completely walking in my truth and standing firm, I wanted to finally say that I am now a Whole Food Plant Based #Vegan . ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
If you invite me out, please know that I may BMOF (bring my own food) but don't take offense to it.
Dont be afraid to live your truth. It's such a freeing feeling
I have the support of family and friends and that's all I need. I love everyone... no judgment. *Sidenote* if you see me eating a piece of cake, just mind yours 😂
I promise I love you
16 2419 hours ago
I could soak in be today, maybe a spa and this instead 🥰
If you really want to see yourself grow, remove the toxic people from your life. 🙌 I've never felt more in control of my future and felt so free from the crippling anxiety she caused me to suffer from. #gym#selfie#putashirton#ifeelbetternow
3 1125 February, 2020
The evolution of a painting. Or should I call it the digretion of a painting? I tried to save it, but in the end I scrapped it. Go figure, that's the kind of day I've had. That's what I get for trying to paint while frustrated. #artistherpy ? #ifeelbetternow#tomorrowsanotherday
Day 3 of the hols and I finally hit the gym for a session, and man do I feel better or what! 👍
Don't get me wrong I love being on holiday but I struggle with the whole doing nothing thing... Especially when your consuming 2-3x your normal calorie intake in cocktails 🍹🧉..🤣
So here I am. Up early before the rest of the family and the day feels like a great day!
Basic set up here but great equipment. Ideal for what I needed... .
5 rounds of 10 rep back squats @ 60kg
With 10x DB shoulder press
10 x tricep extensions
5 x strict pull ups
20x incline ab sit ups
X5 rounds .
3 rounds for best time.
40 kb swings
30 DB snatches
20 Renegade rows
10 burpees .
Followed by breakfast obviously 🤣.
It was one of those days where nothing bad or wrong happened, but nothing went quite according to my plan. Since I’ve lived with PTSD and GAD (general anxiety disorder), when a plan changes, a pivot is needed, or I didn’t plan well, or whatever, I don’t always cope well. It “triggers” an overreaction, irritability, irrational thinking or feelings, overwhelm, indecisiveness, emotional swings, tears - you get the picture. It requires coping skills and a lot of patience from my loved ones and myself. And. Chocolate and oils! Do what works, amiright!? I didn’t totally loose my sh*t today, so I’d call that a win! I’ve come a long way since panic attacks on the floor. (Today was just about laundry and clutter - and time management - and a plan change - no crisis of any kind. To my point - Overreacting) #mentalhealth#itcanwaittilltomorrow#justinspeanutbutter#yleo#stressaway#copingskills#whoosah#anxiety#ifeelbetternow#crisisaverted#itsonlylaundry
Well the good news is my MRI came back stable, no changes, status quo. 💥 the bad news is it will cost me over $3,000 to find that out ... when I could have told them that. 🙄 I feel a bit of a rant coming on ... Dear MS Doctors:
Please stop running unnecessary tests and MRI’s just because that’s what the protocol is, don’t try to schedule appointments 2 times a year at $450 a pop just because you want me to do the peg test and see how fast I can walk down the hall, don’t push medication on me and tell me that diet and exercise don’t matter, don’t make me feel like a major idiot for talking to a Naturopath Doctor ... I’m not your average client, don’t treat me like one.
If I’m having symptoms or not feeling right, your the first one I’d call! But when all is well, WHY are we going down the same path as when things aren’t going well?
I definitely don’t know everything about MS, that’s your role. But I know myself, my body, my finances, my comfort level with the medical world better than you ever will.
So if I could just find one of you that would LISTEN TO ME and WORK WITH ME (I am the paying client, btw), I would be your client forever.
P.S. I’m a client, not a patient - I am not sick.
Now back to race weekend festivities!! 🎉🏃♀️
32 5221 February, 2020
This kid!!! I went back to work today still not feeling well and honestly not wanting to be there, until He turned the corner. As soon as he saw me at my door he started running (not too fast because that’s not allowed haha) with his arms open, ready to hug me, saying “Miss Baxter’s back!!!! Yay!!!” Then when we were sharing good things, his was that I was there because he missed me. I was only gone one day, but he made sure I knew it was noticed 😁. One kind comment was all it took and my attitude about being at work totally changed because I felt so loved. So thankful for a job that allows me to be around sweet kiddos like him. They inspire me to be better every day. Let’s all be better about telling people around us how glad we are that they are there. Making sure people know they are loved, special, noticed and missed when they are gone! #inspiredbykindness#riseandbekind#kidsarekind#heisthesweetest#teachingkids#inspiredbykids#spreadingkindness#makepeoplefeelspecial#letpeopleknowyoucare#ifeelbetternow#teacherbloggers#1stgradeteacher#kidsareprecious
3 2421 February, 2020
First things first I eat your brains, then I gunna start rocking gold teeth and fangs.... On a more serious professional note.... I had a boxing class last night and we were chatting about how amazing it feels as a woman to punch something really hard. It makes you feel so awesome, badass, empowered, challenged and f ing strong.
Message me if you want in on this baddassery! #boxing#badass#monster#fitness#blowingoffsteam#whenimlosingmymind#ifeelbetternow#sweating
1 6021 February, 2020
Well we finally did it! We played a game that we needed to stop before the end... I picked up Jorvik on sale and I saw it was designed by Stefan Feld what could go wrong?? I thought the auction was interesting, players take turns place their meeples out and the amount of meeples under the card is the price you pay for it. Now if the game played fast and forced player to make interesting decisions with that auction it would be fun! But that not this game.... Resources and money are very tight and the start of the game is very slow so half the time your just looking at how to screw you opponents over and after a few rounds the novelty of that was gone. This game didn’t click with our group at all and we decided to call it before the end.
have you ever stopped playing a game mid game? -Tim
I’ve got that mom guilt thing going on today. 🤨
I’m sitting at the car repair shop again getting my AC looked at for the second time in two weeks. We just spent $1400 last week to get it fixed and now it’s having issues again. As I sit here, I feel like I’m adding an extra expense to our family and I’m not personally contributing to the income.
Does anyone else feel that guilt? I’m a stay at home mom, and I know we’re saving money in childcare costs with me staying at home, not to mention being able to see my babies grow up. But I still feel a bit of guilt because I’m not working a regular “job” with a paycheck and contributing to the bills.
So this year I’ve decided to do something about it and I’m leaning into the fear of “what if I fail?” I’ve joined a team of inspiring women who are showing me how to be fearless, how to lean into that fear-because that’s where the growth happens, how to take care of my OWN mental and physical wellbeing, and how to inspire others to do the same.
I’m watching the leaders in our group pay for those unexpected car repair bills from one week’s paycheck. I’m watching them afford to buy organic food for the family and not stress about the price. I’m watching them change lives and build their business by working on themselves and by helping others do the same.
It sounds like a dream job, right?! Work on yourself, share your journey, show other women how to do the same, and oh yeah! Get paid while doing it! YES PLEASE! 🙋🏻♀️ I’m just getting started in the business side of things and I can see what potential there is. I’m not expecting it to be easy but I know it’s something I CAN DO.
I want to be able to stay at home and raise my babies and contribute to my household income. I want to be able to help women feel confident in their own skin and show them how to inspire others to do the same. I’m ready to lean into the uncomfortable and to see what I can do. I’d love it if you join me! Who’s ready to start this journey too!!?? 💫 #wecandohardthings#wellnessjourney#sahm#wfhm#youcanjoinme#confidence#befearless#ifeelbetternow#whoswithme#readyforchange#leanintofear#youllbegladyoudid#personalgrowth
Meet Ro Ro, my new Rogue! She’s cute, sporty, and gray...just like me, lol. 👩🏻🦳Goodbye to the GMC Black Widow. 🕷☹️The Acadia’s transmission had trouble shifting out of 3rd gear sometimes. Glad Autonation has a 5 day grace period for initial vehicle purchases. Thrilled to have a reliable vehicle (that isn’t aflame!) 🚐🔥 #newrogue#newcar#dodgedabulletthere#notonfireanymore#ifeelbetternow
I realized something important today...after freaking out at the kids last night, crying in the laundry room this morning, calling my doctor to increase my anti-depressant and talking with my amazing husband @mbefus. I’m full of bitterness and resentment toward my kids. Why? Because they don’t do shit around the house. I’ve never met more lazy human beings in my life. I blame them. I bitch and moan. But whose fault is it really? It’s mine. I haven’t taught them. I haven’t been consistent. My nana always said to me, “Lauren, we have to train our men. They don’t know what the hell they’re doing.” Well, same-same for my kids.
And with that, let the training begin. I decorated for them for after school. I made them brownies and got them fun drinks and cards. But inside those cards are chore contracts. You want to play Xbox? Take tennis lessons? Play an instrument? Have sleepovers? Drive across town to hang with friends? Well, sign on the line, my sweet babies. Mama ain’t messin’ around. #thisismyhellyesface#gettowork#choretime#maytheoddsbeeverinyourfavor#happyheartday#ifeelbetternow#whyhirehousecleanerswhenihavefourkids
A long, cathartic post.
Today has been one frustration after another; it has affirmed my negative feelings toward anything and everything admin/tech related. I took a bunch of photos for my about page, edited my policies, and then went to update the images on my about page...once I finally found the page where I could actually delete the old and add the new (why are there two places on @Etsy to do this, but only one is in working order?), I added the photos only to find them horribly cropped, using a postage stamp size portion of the image. It’s been so long since I’ve done this that I forgot these images need to be 760x468 pixels. Once I went to lightroom and cropped them myself, I realized I also forgot that 760x468 pixels is tiny as ****. So basically, I need to climb up a ladder or stand a 1/2 mile away from whatever I’m photographing 😂😭. After multiple hours of struggling with my dinosaur of a computer and my own technological ineptness, I have to start all over tomorrow and hope that my practice run today makes everything run smoother tomorrow.
Posting this image is me trying to feel like today was not a total waste. It’s me trying not to feel like bursting wide open because I can’t fix anything without light and I just want to fix it now. Is there a ripping out hair emoji? #thestruggleisreal
5 7913 February, 2020
When you had a rough day, but the gym was still calling your name... you SHOW UP! 🔥 #ifeelbetternow
0 213 February, 2020
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Oh Heyyy! 🙋🏼♀️
It's been a hot minute since I posted! 💋
But it's time for a little chat! So please stay with me! 💁🏼♀️
I have been struggling with a few things lately... Mostly because I want my page to be a safe space for everyone! 🥰
There is no secret that I love all things health & wellness related and of course fitness is a big part of that! But as you may or may not know, in the past I have struggled with disordered eating, mindset issues, body dysmorphia and over exercising... 🤸♀️🤸🏼♀️
So here's the dilemma... While I'm still striving for some "body goals" and I talk a lot about what I'm doing to achieve those goals I absolutely DO NOT want to trigger someone who may be struggling with an eating or other related disorder! 😘
So I have done a lot of soul searching and YouTubeing 🤣 to come so some sort of answers.
I have come to the realization that you can still love yourself and want to make improvements... Including changes to your body and diet! 🍓
It's okay to want to nourish your body with amazing healthful foods! And it's also ok to want to move your body with exercise! These are all acts of self-love if done for the right reasons! 🙃
It's not an all or nothing equation and sometimes I see influencers promoting unhealthy lifestyles in the name of self love and while I believe in balance I do not believe in living an "unhealthy lifestyle" in the name of self-love especially if it's harming your well-being in some way! 🤯
So I am going to be sharing my journey with the hope of inspiring and empowering you to take charge of your own wellness and I would love to help along the way! 🤩
I am not an expert but I do my research and apply what I think is best for me and my body! 🧘
My body goals might be completely different from yours and that's ok! But what I do know 💯 percent is that everyone can benefit from eating whole foods, reducing sugar (which can cause inflammation and disease in the body) and doing some sort of movement to keep your body alive! 😌
Wooohh it feels much better to get that off my chest and to clarify my intentions here! 😘Love you all!! 🥰