I woke up, all drained up in sweat, with shortness of breath. I checked my phone , it was 3 AM.
Ugh, these Nightmares.
Was sick of them, from past 3 years.
Tried calling him, BUSY.
Called him approximately 5 times, BUSY.
He called me back "Are you out of your mind' can't you see I'm busy, I'm talking to a friend!"
I didn't fight. I didn't had the energy to.
Washed my face, Drank some water, tried soothing me, "It's all okay, I ain't loosing anything! It was just a dream."
Lights were off, I was lying in the bed. My phone vibrated.
"What happened, why did you call?!" He seemed Angry.
He again put my call on hold for 45 minutes.
'Yes! What do you want!?'
'Nothing' I just wanted to talk. '
'Talk. Really! Are you kidding me, It's 4 in the morning. I'm sleepy. Goodnight'
" Okay. Take Care. " I murmured.
There was no sleep in my eyes. I was looking at those radium galaxy's stickers on my ceiling. 'Why am I treated like this? Why ain't I enough? I never was. I never will be.'
He couldn't spare his 5 minutes the whole day, clearly I wasn't on his Priority list.
But, I held onto him, thinking it would get better. Still, he slipped. Instead of everything what I did, he chose some other girl over me for his temporary pleasure.
'I was ready to fight the world, but unfortunately he left.
I don’t know who needs to hear this but it’s ok to not be ok. (Actually I do know who 🤔). I have recently been having conversations with friends and family, especially the ones living in Melbourne. Going through another lockdown is no easy thing to cope with mentally. I want you to know that it’s ok to not feel your best every second of this pandemic. Happiness and always knowing what’s next all the time is so overrated. Live one day at a time. Things eventually get better, or at least we always do find ways to make the best of what we got! 🍋👉🏽🍹
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When it's gone it's gone. You're not to blame that after all your tries, the person you love still doesn't try to make you stay.
Be patient darlings, ⠀
The world is full of people who have so much love to give. They, just like you have loved and lost and yet still found love again. When the right one comes along, you’ll know. ⠀
What’s your favorite romantic movie ? ⠀
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