We’re selling shirts to raise money for PR! 🇵🇷🙏🇵🇷🙏🇵🇷 Join us and @octavitas_ny on January 25th 5pm at @thewellbrooklyn to close out the holiday season by celebrating Las Octavitas en Nuyork! An event dedicated to helping our Brothers and Sisters in Puerto Rico.
El espíritu de nuestro pueblo es INQUEBRANTABLE. We don't just thrive, we flourish. So we're sharing this symbol of resilience, our UNBREAKABLE flag. All proceeds from this limited edition shirt help provide earthquake relief for PR. Todas las ganancias de esta camisa serán para proveer ayuda a los damnificados por terremotos en PR. ÚNETE. 💫 xo 💫 LINK IN BIO.
My mind has been all over the place since losing my aunt Jackie last week. Idk if I’m mad, sad... or what. Cancer has taken so many people who are close to me. I haven’t wanted to eat, I can’t sleep like usual, and cardio is the furthest thing on my mind. I’m trying my hardest to stick to my offseason plans as much as I can... but... sometimes, life..ya know?! #fuckcancer#prettymadaboutit#justfivemoreminutes
Another scare but this time with Cooper. Little rest and meds and hopefully he’ll be all fixed up! This momma can’t take much more... 💙🐶 #myhearthurts#gsplove
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I'm already having a hard time with this, and I'm still here 🥺 #myhearthurts
5 1615 hours ago
My heart hurts. 💔 Today I lost my brother. I’m loss for words. Trying to keep a positive outlook but my heart and mind are not synced. A part of me is angry that we only had 6 years to make up for lost time but I am also grateful that I found you and truly became siblings. I will miss our conversations, I will miss your corny jokes and I will continue to look at our situation with grace like you always reminded me. I love you with all my heart Carlos!!
Do you need help?
Is that your heart?
It's small... It was bigger before.
Yeah, that's my problem... #moodoftheday#myheartexposed
1 1016 January, 2020
Thursday 16th January 2019 - We’ve had chuckles and tiny giggles but this morning, surrounded by piles of un-folded washing, this boy did his first proper belly laugh and it is without doubt the best sound I have ever heard. If anyone needs me for the next 25 years or so I can be found making this ridiculous noise and doing everything I can to keep making my boy laugh 💙 #nobodypreparesyouformomentslikethis#myhearthurts#atleastsomeonethinksimfunny
#flight752 took my breath away 🖤 it’s been a rough time, my heart goes to a dear friend and innocent people that are no longer among us. The only things that keep me going during this difficult time are meditation, spending time in nature and support from my family, partner & friends. I wonder if it’s time to leave this planet and move to Mars 🖤💫
If you have an Iranian/Ukrainian friend, give them a hug these days and be kind to them.
7 8616 January, 2020
It came back 😢...and no matter how hard we fought. We couldn’t win... I had you for 9 years and you brought so much joy and laughter to my heart. But sometimes that’s not enough and sometimes some mysterious illness has to take the rest of the time that we would of had. My precious Luka I will always remember you as my sassy makeup bag / pillow stealing gender confused cat. I just wish I didn’t have to say goodbye but I don’t want you suffering and I don’t want to come home to you gone as you suffer at home. I love you LuLu and you’ll always be with me my little bubby . Luka “LuLu” Stone (June 2010-Jan 2020) #RIPLuka#lukatime#hasended#goodbye#loveyoualways#sayinggoodbye#alwayshard#myhearthurts
So sad my meatball had to go back home to London today, but hey he got to sit next to and play with the one and only OBJ for the entire flight.. I had the best month with this sweet, beautiful, happy baby boy. My heart hurts thinking I won’t see you everyday Anto. @nickydee86 and @francesco.desimone10 thank you for giving us this precious gift.. Anto you are so so loved and missed already. #babyboy#myhearthurts#odellbeckhamjr
An animal is the only thing on earth that loves you more than they love themselves....R.I.P. Blacky Bear 💔💔💔 I know you’ll be better off in the Rainbow Bridge 🌈, you deserve to be happy and healthy. Life won’t be the same without you in it; we love you and we will miss you sooooooo incredibly much. I love you Bear 💜🐾💜🐾💜🐾💜 #myhearthurts#imissyoualready#ripblackybear#untilwemeetagain
My eyes got watery writing this because I hate the power I allow certain people to have over me. I’m disgusted by the satisfaction that I see on their faces after seeing how bad they’ve beat me down.⠀
I trace my abandonment issues back to certain adults who due to depression, selfishness, or past struggles, chose to project their pain onto an innocent child needing the approval and acceptance to properly develop. ⠀
My biggest pain stemming from the neglect of my grandparents. ⠀
My grandfather Leroy never accepted me or my siblings because he never accepted my mom. I can’t explain the embarrassment and pain going to school with cousins and neither of you are aware. I remember I had a crush on this boy Terry in elementary school and we both happened to be at Food Lion with our parent’s. We saw each other and I was like “mom there he is, he’s so cute” and my mom and his dad greeted each other with the words “hey cuz”. 🥴⠀
Turns out he is a relative on the Anderson side, the side of the family kept hidden by my “grandfather” who even till this day couldn’t care less about my existence. He taught me abandonment at 5 years old and taught me how to accept disappointment at 25, when he refused to come meet us after driving to Sylvester excited for a chance to finally get that love and approval only to be blown off. Shame. ⠀
My grandma I won’t get into out of respect for my cousins who were blessed to experience a close bond with her. My sisters and I weren’t so blessed due to a feud that had nothing to do with us. But she taught me worthlessness, something about hearing you’re the least favorite grandchild scars you in unimaginable ways. But I’ll leave that there.⠀
It’s unfortunate but a huge part of growth is acknowledging things you’d rather ignore or excuse. Truthfully I’ll probably never feel good enough. It’s probably for the best I never had a relationship because I would’ve given them too much control and completely abandoned myself. ⠀
Lesson: value your opinion of yourself above others 𝐀𝐍𝐃 remind yourself we’re all imperfect and are wounded hearts at times unintentionally hurting others. Forgive. Heal. Progress.⠀
Ever had something just speak to you... If you have been struggling with something.
Nervous about the future.
Or know a woman who is...
THIS book girlfriend! I have talked about my toughest year of my 35 years of life. This book was written for me to read and I found it in the exact moment that I needed. It spoke to the depths of my broken heart and helped me find peace, clarity, joy, and hope in the aftermath.
One day, I will share more of my heart because I know my story will help someone. I’ve been picking up the pieces and rebuilding until then. I know it will be beautiful and this undoing of me, is the remaking of a stronger woman of God. And I know my friend, this book will serve you in your journey.
My heart is absolutely shattered to have lost another friend. Dave Del Castillo, you were such a stand up man, husband, father and friend. Always smiling ..20+ years of friendship man... I am so devastated for Tara and the kids. I want nothing more to go home to my Victoria family and hold everyone close. This is a tragic tragic loss that I just can't seem to wrap my head around. To say you will be missed is surely an understatement. This is going to hurt alot of people badly. To everyone in Vic..I am SO SO sorry . I love you guys so much. I want to come home now please. 💔💔💔 #heartbroken#goodbyemyfriend#myhearthurts#iwannagohomenow#rip
To say it all goes by so fast is an understatement. This green-eyed angel turns SIXTEEN today. 16. I barely blinked. I've certainly not slept enough. We haven't had enough vacations and holiday celebrations for this to be happening. I'm so, so proud of this amazing young woman. She's smart, she's witty, she's confident. She knows exactly what she wants and she's digging in and going after it. She's a force and I'm going to fuel those flames for as long as she'll let me. Happy Birthday, sis. Thanks for keeping us all in line and making sure we're all on time in the morning. Thanks for being the best big sister and little sister that you know how to be. You're a wonderful human and I'm lucky to be your mom. I love you. ❤️ #myhumansarentsotinyanymore#itsabigyear#myhearthurts#sweet16#ijustneedafewmoreminutes
14 4515 January, 2020
On particularly bad days I tend to either write a lot or nothing at all. Today was filled with words. And even though I have so much to say, I don’t even know if I want to share it until these feelings pass. But I know on a day like this if he were still my person. I would tell him that I want to sit in his lap & just have him hold me while I lay my head on his chest. And he’d probably just tell me I’m weird but I know he would still let me do it anyway. And today I need that 😥
A year ago today I lost my best friend it was the most heartbreaking and traumatizing thing I ever had to experience in my life. He helped me in so many ways that some people will never understand he literally changed my world, never knew I could love that hard; he taught me so much. I will forever miss my first baby and it will hurt forever, that pain will never go away... It just gets more manageable #RIP
Ollie, mama loves you forever and ever❤️ #myhearthurts
Photo of the day goes to @kararosenlund #cc365pictureoftheday
KOALA UPDATE 🐨 We are at $144k for the koalas!! I can’t believe it 😭 You guys are phenomenal - so much love! 🐨❤️ Through your amounts of $5 $10 $20 you are really making such a difference for the koalas future. Skipping that coffee for a koala 🐨 All of you - from all over the world 🌍 Thank you SO much. And also those who can’t donate but are helping by sharing these posts. Keeping this conversation alive is powerful. The first photograph and video are from Kangaroo Island who also need help. Check out the car load of koalas - this video is from a group of teenagers rescuing koalas in their car LEGENDS so heartwarming yet heartbreaking ❤️ My koala fundraiser is for WIRES, though I thought I would also mention Kangaroo Island @kiwildlifepark@adelaidekoalarescue and especially @wildlifevictoria who need donations, or you can hit the link in my bio or stories to donate to my koala fund. Thank you so much! ❤️ (portrait of man and koala is by David Mariuz) #koalas#bushfiresaustralia