#happiness#wherethewildthingsare 🥑🧘🏽♀️Nothing is set to be/ happen a particular way, one must be willing to change one’s perspective to ensure one’s happiness ...✈️🌎🚌🙏🏾🌊 I can definitely say that this process is quite challenging but days when one actually changes one’s perspectives/expectations one gets to enjoy the moments / experiences a little more in their simplicity...
Photodiary - Day 4: The roman-turkish inspired St. Charles Church, the beautiful building of Wien Technische Universität, the Wien Musikverein and the exterior of the Opera, from the outside to the outstanding inside of St. Peter's Church, the Johan Strauss monument while enjoying a breathe in Stadtpark, the magnificient Wien City Hall and the Hofburg theatre with the pintoresque vintage tram. // En Vienna todo es así. Barroco. Opulente. Elegante. Increíble. Y claro, normal que cada nuevo edificio y cada nuevo rincón te sobrecoja más que el anterior. 🇦🇹❤
I don’t wanna sound cliché... but it was most definitely the BEST #eggsbenedict I have ever had in my life... #crab & #chive
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save this post if you want to visit banff or jasper someday!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
ℹ️ GENERAL ADVICE:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- rent a car⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- buy a park pass or you will get a warning and possibly a ticket. you cannot even drive on the icefields parkway without one.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- book hotels early!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- STAY: 20 min away in Canmore⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- DO: grassi lakes hike (take more difficult hike up for better views), lake louise (get there before 8am for parking), moraine lake (get there before 5:30am for sunrise parking), banff gondola, johnston canyon hike⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- SKIP: banff hot springs (man made and basically a crowded pool)⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
🗻 ICEFIELDS PARKWAY TO JASPER:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- 1 full day of driving, no wifi or cell service!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- DO: peyto lake, bow lake, athabasca glacier and skywalk (the skywalk can be done alone but is not as cool, grab lunch and get on wifi at the glacier discovery center), random turnoffs all along the parkway offer great views and hiking opportunities, keep an eye out for wildlife⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- STAY: in jasper town⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- DO: maligne lake (also offers a boat cruise to spirit island which i skipped due to poor weather), medicine lake, maligne canyon hike (start at fifth bridge and hike to first bridge and back), pyramid lake, valley of the five lakes hike, drive around early in the morning or late afternoon to see tons of wildlife!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
- SKIP: jasper skytram on a cloudy day⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
✈️ HOW TO GET THERE: fly to calgary, about an hour drive from canmore⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
📆 HOW MANY DAYS: at least a week for both Banff and jasper.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
💰 PRICE: can get pretty pricey but there are also hostels around to reduce the cost, and food is reasonable
"Я опоздала на самолёт", с этой фразы я уже мысленно начинала писать на Couchsurfing, чтобы найти ночлег, когда мой автобус не пришёл по расписанию или я прошляпила его и не "поймала" после ожидания в 30 минут.
Как я нервничала!
Нет, время было, но не много, и нужно было ехать на центральную площадь, и я не знала, сколько займут дорога, проверки, я Non-Eu гражданка, кто там знает. Хотя аэропорт всего в 6 км от города. Сильно повезло, что Ryanair изменил систему и я купила билет с багажом, который можно и нужно взять в самолёт. А мне ещё казалось это не самым удобным. В общем, мой любимый Ryan меня снова выручил.
В итоге приехала за 40 минут до закрытия гейта. Успела еще и потому, что нет паспортного контроля при полете между EU странами.
Ryanair - "Please, sit back, relax and enjoy your flight". Обожаю эту фразу)
I had to take a pic of the ridiculousness of people posing in front of the #leaningtowerofpisa because all along the road it was just one silly pose after another. If some alien spaceship landed nearby and saw all these humans posing like this they would be so confused and wondering what we were doing, and why.
On Top of the world, showing my baby the world. 📸: @true_santorini
Santorini and Greece itself was so beautiful. (This photoshoot was testing my fear of heights, well all of Santorini tested my fear bc the busses go on these sharp edges where you can literally fall to your death if you don’t know how to drive lol lol but we got through it). Also I invited probably everyone I know on this trip and pretty much no one could commit so I just went alone and I think I prefer traveling alone more than anything now. It’s so much of a sense of freedom, I can move at my own pace and not wait around for anyone. I think it’s fun traveling with others but much more of an experience traveling alone. Not one day did I sit around and lounge, I toured and walked the islands and cities from 9am-8pm. I don’t walk around at night just to be alert and cautious and plus I’m already exhausted by that time. This was a really long trip especially with a baby but I think I developed more patience bc I was by myself and some things were very trying ( like romans allergic reaction to peanut butter) having to figure out what I was going to do with him half the time. I also baby carried him the whole time bc fira and oia are not stroller friendly and in Spain the airline lost my stroller ( 3rd stroller in a year 🤦🏽♀️). I also only used public transportation during my travels, cabs and everything else are wayyy to expensive and during my Spain stay, I just walked majority of the time bc pickpocketing is a MAJOR issue there and especially in the subways and I was not trying to get mugged. Anyways, The world is a beautiful place and there is so much of it to see and so much good food to eat. And Not one time during my trip to any of the countries did I feel unsafe, I was followed around in Dubai but the police handled it immediately and I still felt very safe, if you considered traveling alone just DO IT. I met some amazing ppl during my trip and there is so much more to life than staying local. Stay tuned for our trip next month to Bali. #solotraveler#santorini#oiasantorini#fira#firasantorini#girlslovetravel#traveling#travelingreece#blackwomentravel#fashionnova
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She's not alive anymore. This was the truth and it was sitting there, demanding to be taken in stride.
I'm a talker and I remember that Mumma used to be super busy with work and taking care of home. And she was very spiritual and would go to satsang often and there were times when I'd get really emotional when she'd go to satsang because I'd be like you're always prioritising it over spending time with me.
You see, I'm a talker. And quality time is how I feel loved. I'm also big on hugging and I would go hug her again and again and tell her I loved her.
She wasn't much of a hugger earlier but later she became one and her hugs were so comforting that one would feel like everything is okay even when things were crumbling apart.
She was an empath and she was the kindest woman I knew.
On bad days, I would just put my head on her lap and it would make things okay. And on worse days, she'd hold me through the night.
In the end, she'd started to understand my need of spending time with her.
She used to everyday come to my room after she'd finished the day's work and I would half lay on the bed while she sat on a chair opposite my bed and we'd talk. I remember she'd just started using WhatsApp those days and she would talk to me while also checking her messages and stuff. I cannot even begin to explain how much I cherish that time and how it made me feel.
She would sometimes WhatsApp me spiritual messages that I had also received from the same WhatsApp group but wouldn't read, so she'd personally send it to me trying to get me to read them. And she'd WhatsApp them me from the nearby room and that would make me laugh.
She also would have one look at me and know that I'd been crying.
Mumma was so open to growing and learning and she grew as a mother and person over the years and I grew as a person because of her. And God! how our relationship blossomed into something unimaginably beautiful overtime.
I'm sure she'd have been the coolest mother if she was here. I would tell her about the men I was dating. We'd have gone on trips together. It would have been a ride! .
Nobody's talking about Mumma these days.
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لب بندر اسلو که راه میرفتم ناراحت بودم که چرا تنهام و نمی تونم با منظره هایی که دوست دارم عکس بگیرم و داشتم فکر می کردم از کی خواهش کنم ازم عکس بگیره، که یک دفعه یاد قلم گوشی #نوت_۹ ام افتادم. با حساسیت تماموقتی منظره ی قشنگی می دیدم، دنبال جای مسطح و بلندی می گشتم که موبایل رو بکارم و برم دورتر بشینم یا بایستم و از خودم عکس بگیرم. نتیجه خوب بود و من خیلی خوشحال بودم از این استقلالی که تکنولوژی بهم داده و یاد عکسهایی که #هدا_رستمی تو سفرهاش از خودش با همین گوشی نوت می گرفت و می گیره افتادم.
اما امروز یکجور دیگه ای به موضوع نگاه کردم. تکنولوژی با دادن استقلال بهمون و راحت کردن زندگی هامون داره از هم دورترمون می کنه. همین استقلال ساده تو عکس گرفتن باعث شد من با کسی صحبت نکنم و از محدوده ی راحت خودم خارج نشم تا از کسی کمک بخوام.
شما ها تاثیر تکنولوژی رو چطوری تو زندگی تون حس و تجربه کردید؟ بیشتر مثبت و یا منفی؟ #aniranianswedishcitizen #استقلال #سامسونگ_نوت9 #solotraveler #technology #samsungnote9 #independenceday bringa #loneliness
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Lately, there have been so many daily moments that have tried to break my heart a little and I would shrug them.
When sometimes, mausi cooks for me; I just want mum to do that. Going to a wedding and seeing people's mothers all emotional and content makes me sad as she won't be there at my wedding. I sometimes think that I might just have a court marriage whenever I do marry because I simply do not have the strength to go through it without her.
Even trivial things like seeing people's mothers getting angry with their children make me miss her. Even trying to build my life sometimes seems incomplete and empty because she won't ever get to witness who I've become and am becoming.
And I'd never be able to witness that happiness and pride that parents feel when they see their children blossom.
You see, I've stopped trying to get over this pain. I used to do that earlier only to realise that some pains are supposed to be carried and not gotten over. I had read it somewhere and it had hit home. It made things easier because now I'd accepted that this pain was going to be there forever. Not in the same way, obviously.
It doesn't hurt all the time, anymore. But there are moments, when it just engulfs you. There are moments when this pain is too much to carry.
And today was one such day.
I don't remember the last time I had a good cry, until today that is
Not matter how much I try to act all strong and like I've got it under control, everything including my dreams have had to be altered to fit into this life without mum. It's just not the same. Instead, I see life as being broken into two halves; one half is life with Mum and the other after her.
This missing physically hurts. A little too much today.
I want her here. Just talking to me about random stuff and hugging me. I need to be hugged by her
I'm really tired of constantly avoiding thinking about her. I wonder if this is suddenly hitting so hard because I've not been talking about it, not been allowing myself to feel it. And I wasn't really avoiding it consciously. I was doing it because it wasn't like thinking about her would change anything. (Continued in next post)
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It was mum's shradh yesterday and I went through the day like it was just another day. Infact, I had a seminar to attend and came home around 4 and wasn't at home in the afternoon, unlike every year. Every year, Papa calls and asks me to come home during lunch time and have food/prasad there. There aren't really many rituals performed except that we feed a kanya, kind of like Navratri. But being there feels like being a part of the day, like honouring Mum. It feels like remembering mum together
Yesterday, I didn't do that. I was tired when I went to Papa's place right after the seminar. I just had Prasad and left. Now, I didn't really have a choice here. I had to go to that seminar but truth be told, I didn't even ask the principal of the school I work in if I can skip it. Because I thought, that my presence at home won't make much difference. Also, I kind of didn't feel like telling anyone about the shradh and then there was the fact that the principal was probably gonna ask me to go anyhow that deterred me from asking at all. I thought that I'd go later when I'm done with the seminar. Now all this is true but if I'm being honest, I have been subconsciously trying to avoid thinking about mum lately. And not going there yesterday came easy to me. Lately, I've been doing my best to not let my mind ponder over thoughts of Mum.
And I didn't realise I was doing this, until today.
Today, it just feels like all that missing that I've been trying to supress is spilling over. It's hurting
So the past couple of months or so, everytime something happened that made me miss Mum; I would choose to shrug my thoughts and not think about or feel that ache, that missing. And there have been times when the missing was immense and I still ignored it
So today, the second I started writing about it because suppressing it felt too much now; I was overwhelmed with emotions. I could feel my chest hurt from the missing. It's like suddenly all of the missing hit me.
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On this trip I learned ⠀
that there’s a whole world out there ⠀
waiting for each of us to find it⠀
& the universe will surprise you
when you’re least expecting it ⠀
the rain will clear at the top of the mountain⠀
sunbeams will come through the clouds ⠀
as you swim in the ocean⠀
brilliant rainbows will come after the storm⠀
so, get comfortable with being uncomfortable⠀
do things that scare you just a little bit⠀
because it’s true that⠀
everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear ⠀
& more importantly ⠀
what’s meant for us ⠀
will not pass us by
This place is my fav of Cairo,while strolling the market, you may find your eyes get lost between the unique mix of merchandise displayed in shops and allies🔮from spices and perfumes to jewelry 💎 and souvenirs!
It’s impossible to come back without buying something!
The number 1️⃣ rule of the market is bargaining.
Maybe it's because I'm Chinese, but I love bargaining!
It's almost like a way of making new friends.
Such is the way of the world. You can never know. Just where to put all your faith. And how will it grow. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Gonna rise up. Burning black holes in dark memories. Gonna rise up. Turning mistakes into gold.
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Such is the passage of time. Too fast to fold. Suddenly swallowed by signs. Low and behold
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