I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for years now, I don’t think I could even trace back to where it all started. I’m overly sensitive and too emotional, rather introverted, extremely shy and overwhelmed way too often.
See, that’s who I am, and there’s no other way.
But sometimes it’s so hard to accept all of these parts of myself. I have been consciously and consistently learning for the past few years to be OK with who I am, to be comfortable in my own skin. I have been unlearning who I was ‘supposed to be’ to be who I really am.
That has led to shedding so many layers I’ve hidden myself under. Layers of ambitions and goals that weren’t mine, layers of an image that wasn’t the true reflection of myself, layers of self-doubt and layers of relationships that took more than gave.
I am still working on it, and the more I dig, the more I see how much work there is left to do. But what I realise more and more, is that all I have really wanted from this life is to be happy, just that. And I am 100% allowed to choose my own way to get there, and not follow anyone’s perceptions or expectations.
This mindshift was the main reason that led me to Switzerland 🇨🇭 I let myself follow my heart and my dreams, and I will be forever proud of myself for getting here, no matter where the road leads next.
If you let yourself be, you might surprise yourself. But would you dare to?
P.S. I almost didn’t publish this caption, because “who the hell cares?”, but I do. And more than anything it’s a note to myself 📝