January is the 10 year anniversary of the day I witnessed the last exhale out of the lungs of the woman who loved and cared for me for 17 years of her 49 years of life.
I think about her often. I giggle to myself imagining her freaking out about me standing at the heights I do and playing near cliff edges. I can always hear her in the back of my head screaming: “MARIE!!! You’re so ornery!!!” as I approach any edge with a subtle grin.
As I get older, I find myself becoming more like her (sans all the fears she had). Growing up I thought her simple approach to life was frankly boring, all she needed to be happy was the people she loved and our massive backyard. Our backyard was basically one giant garden, which she tended to with so much love every summer. She never wore much if any makeup, her laugh was wildly contagious, and her hugs healed every broken heart of mine.
I think of how at her funeral, I cried when I saw that the massive church couldn’t accommodate everyone at her funeral- people had to stand. I cried again when a bartender noticed my last name and he was like “are you related to Rose Luebbert?” I told him she was my mom. I still remember how much he lit up when he shared “she was my kindergarten teacher!”. She was a kindergarten teacher- she wasn’t an affluent leader. Her gentle and loving nature touched people in ways that I aspire to.
All I know is that at the end of my life, I hope I can say I made a difference in people’s lives. This woman is always a reminder for me of what is possible if you live with an open heart.
Quick little story 🌱 yesterday I took the big step and put in an offer on a house I had been looking at for a few weeks! I was absolutely pumped, I envisioned what I would do to the place and got my hopes up a little bit I'll admit because we put in a competitive offer and had everything in place anddddd we didn't get the place... But that is just life, everything happens for a reason and there's something better just around the corner, but this isn't the point of the story.
Life throws curve balls sometimes and how you react is truly a testimate to your self growth. I have learned so much in terms of personal growth this year. I used to ALWAYS get my way (hate to admit that but you know) and if I didn't...wow it was the end of the world. When I heard about not getting the house, I was obviously a little bit saddened but when I reflected on how I wouldve reacted to that news a year ago, I was just so grateful. The thought of losing the house no longer phased me because everything little hurdle or failure is a stepping stone to more growth and something better. I would have never stepped out of my comfort zone if it wasn't for this business and I would have never experienced so much self growth if not for this business either.
Take that risk, step outside your comfort zone and do what you do need to do to get ahead and to succeed and be happy with your life 👏🏼
📷: @mattprimo .
The more I think I know something, the more my mind is blown with new realizations. It’s wild.
I like to think of my life as a continuation of life unfolding into itself- always gaining clarity towards what my life’s truth actually is. Who am I really? The more I think I know, the more I realize that I’m still uncovering and discovering layers of myself.
Every time I look at the natural wonders of the world, the more I realize how it’s all a mirror of the person we truly are at a core level. We are complex with layers and so many different curves and patterns, like the Grand Canyon. We are constantly changing and evolving.
I think the most important realization I’ve had recently is that even if I don’t know who I entirely am at the deepest core, that doesn’t equate to inadequacy - it equates to constant wonder and a continued path of self exploration and expression.
You are wonderment embodied- explore and dive into exploration of your soul and your life will always be one grand adventure.
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Explored Wahclella Falls for the first time yesterday since the trail reopened.
Every time I’ve hiked into the parts of the Gorge that were affected by the Eagle Creek Fire it has me thinking. While there are still signs of burnt trees, the area is still slowly healing and will continue to do so. Wildfires suck (especially when they aren’t caused naturally) but usually it’s a natural/necessary part of our ecosystem to help it adapt and flourish. “Grow through what you go through.” I think we can learn a lot from trees and Mother Earth.
First pictures with Santa! ✅ She didn’t cry. But she didn’t smile either haha. She was unsure about him. Also pro tip, if you go take pictures with Santa before Thanksgiving, there’s no line and no one else there!
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We get 6 less days this year between Thanksgiving and Christmas. In fact, 2019 is the shortest possible holiday calendar conundrum there could ever be. I could panic, I could spend the weekend shopping, or even putting up the Christmas tree. But I’m not going to do any of that. I’m patting myself on the back for booking a stay with @getawayhouse way back in August for this weekend. I was sold at zero cell phone service and boxes to lock your phones in. I look forward to un-plugging and relaxing in the woods. The holiday madness can wait. The snowflakes, now those can come early and in full unrelenting force if they’d like #letitsnow ☺️.
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Do you make fall last as long as possible or have you already decorated for Xmas? 🍁/🎄?
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It’s been a curled up on the couch in a blanket with a tea kind of week. ☕️ But guess what! My blog post on @nopong.deodorant is up & linked in bio. A lot of you were curious about this product so check it out! ✨
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When convention and science offer us no answers, might we finally turn to the fantastic as a plausibility? 🛸
Back in the PNW this weekend flying into Seattle! so throwing it back to when I first came here last year. The friendships I’ve made out this way and the memories I have out here always got me coming back. Honestly if you use this platform in a positive way you’ll realise how amazing it is at connecting like minded individuals.
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# tbt to this spot. I had read about this spot, but didn't make an effort to find it until my 3rd trip out here. Now I always come here after every hike when I'm up north. # worthyofrepeat
There’s nothing quite like a sunrise in the mountains.
I love mornings. As someone who is a hard core dreamer, I often get caught up in the “possibilities” of every new day. These days I often wake up around 4AM, because I’m stoked to get my day started. I love the energy of mornings as they often have this underlying feeling of “new-ness” and “wonder” to them - as the best moments of the day have likely yet to happen!
Watching a sunrise is like meditation for me. It starts my day from this place of pure joy and bliss- where even if something unfavorable happens, you aren’t affected as much as you would be if you started your day from a place of apathy.
Mornings in the mountains are good for the soul.
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"All moments, past, present, and future, always have existed, always will exist." - Kurt Vonnegut
/ 📸 shot: july 2018
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Not all adventure photos need to be super serious and filled with emotional quotes. Sometimes you need to capture those goofy moments and remind yourself how much fun it is to explore these amazing places with your friends. @sethtbuck is one of those people who I love adventuring with because I can always count on lots of laughs when he’s around. Thanks for being my Wanderbro Seth 😂
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Don’t be afraid to live as a creative minority.
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Take time to chill.
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We don’t—we can’t have children. Our fur babies fill that void, and they are our entire world. Tanner came into my life in January of 2007, the last puppy in a litter at a run down double-wide living in filthy conditions, cigarette smoke, and quite malnourished.
I was a college student who had no business owning a dog, but knew I had to rescue her. Little would I know, nearly thirteen years later she’s given me more than I could ever give her.
Tanner turns 13 years old today, a milestone that we never thought we’d be able to celebrate with her. Since her cancer diagnosis last year, we’ve spent every day like it could be her last. We’ve swam and hiked and chased balls and eaten all of the best treats. We’ve laughed, we’ve cried, we’ve traveled, and we’ve focused a lot on just being present.
I still think she’s a big reason that @daniwyeth decided to marry me, after puppy sitting several times during our college days. She’s taught us so much along the way about how to live life and how to love. She’s taught @goldenboyranger how to be the goodest golden retriever, and made friends with everyone and every animal she’s ever met.
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We were clouded in for our sunrise adventure this morning, but as we hiked back to the truck we noticed the clouds breaking up. All of the sudden, this ray of golden light broke through the clouds to illuminate the cone on @mtbachelor. I think that means we’re going to have a good season of skiing ahead of us.
A few years ago, I would’ve scoffed at the idea of making time for “fun” and “play”. I grew up holding a lot of guilt/shame towards playing in general, as I was constantly told that my will to play and be social was a bad thing. Why? Because I never was meant to fit the limiting mold that success is only attained through means of the normal/traditional life path.
At 20, I was in state of survival. I was responsible for myself in ways I didn’t have any concern about prior- things like health insurance while I was also a full time student. My car wouldn’t start, so I decided to lease a vehicle as well. Not to mention I was also paying rent, utilities, etc. I was working full time (with 2 jobs- one as a nanny and then also at Hyatt hotels) while also attending school full time. I remember feeling resentful towards life while all my friends had fun in college. I was often at work until 11PM and had to wake up at 5AM to do it all the following day 6 days of the week.
This lifestyle of constantly going in survival mode went on for years. I was 25 when I thought I was having a heart attack as I sat in my work cubicle- I felt like I couldn’t breathe and my chest felt tight and heavy. I went to the doctor and had an EKG and they put me on a heart monitor. Nothing was wrong with me, my doctor asked me if I struggled with anxiety.
That was my wake up call that I couldn’t live like this anymore. I started to ask myself questions that would completely change my life direction and I still have a feeling I’m only beginning to understand my path.
This is the one precious life you’ve been given- be sure to play and fill your heart in all the ways it needs most.
I’m gonna be in Issaquah with my sister @tahneebryn this Saturday (16th) from 5-8pm and you should stop by! We’ll be with our brand @wishyouwerenorthwest for @scoutandmollysissaquah’s 1 year anniversary party 🎉 🌲 You might have already seen on my story, but there will be snacks, discounts, and other fun stuff + of course we’ll have some of our clothes with us for you to shop! I would love to finally meet some of you in person! 🤗
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On my way to Montana w/ @philipkyle! Let me know if you have any fav spots between WA and there, coffee shops, views, or whatever 😃
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Lake Wenatchee yesterday 🍂 First photo is Canon 5D Mark IV and second photo is iPhone 11 Pro Max 🤳🏼 What camera do you use? Been thinking about getting a Sony next 🤓
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Filed under: Things I daydream about 😌🧡🌲
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Sunset on Halloween 🌙🌅😌
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What’s your enneagram number? 🙃🧐
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